a letter from the past…………….

” MAGHIHINTAY AKO, HINDI MAGBABAGO, IKAW LAMANG ” Don’t ever think that I have forsaken all these words. Sa tingin mo ba-am I not still waiting? Please I ask you not to jump into conclusions. Do see if I have changed. See really who I am. And I do sincerely say that you were the only one.
First things first, ( a little history before we have crossed our path ) I have loved but received nothing in return. Mahabang kwento and in the course of being practical, I am asking what will happen to myself in such sordid circumstances? Am I not at all concerned with myself in love?Am I not at all interested in being loved in return? Consequently surely you know, there exist in loving the other, the desire to be loved in return. Lahat naman tayo naghahanap ng pagmamahal. It was painful, I tell you.
THEN I MET YOU..Yes YOU…….You have been the apple of my eyes because of your kindness, your giggles and everything. I do not know but it all happened very fast. All of a sudden, I was crying my heart out for you. I was desperately in love with you, alam mo yan. It was beautiful and it was very painful.
IKAW LAMANG simula pa ng makilala kita, when you first rejected my proposal, I’ve turned my feelings to ________sa pag aakalang maiibsan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko. Hindi pala.I realized, ikaw talaga ang mahal ko. Many people can prove that. And I know how painful it had hurted______. And I’mtrying to make up all my wrong doings to her by befriending her again. Alam din ni____kung gaano kita kamahal. Hindi mo lamang makita. But whats the use of telling you if you always do not believe. I have given you all the benefit of the doubt but still hanggang ngayon you still do not believe in me.Please be honest, naawa ka lamang sa akin kaya natutunan mo akong mahalin.Nevertheless, thank you for everything you’ve shown and done. Salamat sa mga ipinakita mong kagandahang loob sa akin. Sa concern mo sa akin, sa duty, sa pag uwi ko, sa kalusugan ko, sa well-being ko. Truely I am forever indebted with you and your family. Thank you very much indeed.About all your querries, you need not ask for forgiveness dahil wala ka namang ginawang kasalanan. If you do believe you have, still I will forgive you. YES, we can still be good friends ( I hope ). YES I would still be here if you ever needed my help. What are friends are for. And honestly, hindi nawalaang respeto ko sayo…Never.
I’ve taken all the hurt whole heartedly. I understand, I always do. You’re not that ready to have a commitment ( just as grown ups call it- LOVE ). They equate love as to commiting yourself to someone. I dont know. When it comes to love, they say, still I am a child.
Huwag kang magalala, masaya naman ako kahit papaano dahil alam kong masaya ka sa kalagayan mo ngayon. Sinasabi nga nila na mas nakikita ka nilang nakangiti kapag wala ako. I’ve fulfilled your wish-your freedom. You’re right. Maybe someday-somewhere-somehow we’ll know if we are really meant for each other and it doesnt really matter when. ( it reminds me of a song ).And don’t ever think that writing me, or having a conversation with me would take some precious time off me. Kapagka ikaw, time does not really matter. Para ka namang others. I would still do anything for you.
FOLLOW YOUR HEART.Just follow your heart for your heart will know, the love that’s meant for you.The love that’s going to change your world and last a lifetime through.The perfect love that’s yours alone and has been from the start,The love that you can find by following your heart. ( and with the consent of your head too ).

Bago ko nga pala makalimutan, a little reminder.

1. Take precautions in using the stairways, if you feel you’re not well, find someone who can accompany you in using the steep stairways.2. In crossing the street, para naman kasing di makakarating sa kabila.3. Always eat on time.4. Always sleep early.5. Don’t forget taking medicines if necessity permits6. And the way you carry yourself, And I guess I do not need to tell you all dahil malaki ka na.
Thank you for believing in ” MAGIC ”Thank you for making me a part of your yesterday, now I kindly ask, can I still be part of your today? ( even for friendship sake )Thank you sa parents mo lalong lalo na sa mommy mo. Thank you sa lahat ng nakilala ko sa inyo, pwedeng pass the phone? Kidding aside, THANK YOU TALAGA, JOAN.


love and care___________________I hope I can stand the test of time
TAKE A LOT OF GOOD CARE * GOD BLESS * INGAT PALAGI
* FRIENDS *


this letter is dated October 02, 1996, 11:24 p.m
I just got this when I went to my mom’s house. I was 17 years old when I received this letter from someone who treated me like a princess during those days…..sorry for all the heart ache I gave you……( childish things ) I learned a lot from you….And words are not even suffice to let you know how thankful I am for crossing my way….thank you..God bless…take care…..